I am scared. I am scared of myself. Of my mind. Of who can see the mind I have. I am scared. I am scared. I am scared to hear. Scared to think. Scared to be. I am scared of me. I am scared. I am scared of who is in my head. I am…
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I can’t, and I don’t want to
It seems like yesterday, when we met on a random summer evening,The arena was full of innocent souls and was operatic,And the dark night illuminated with a glitter of your eyes.For the sake of my lustre,I don’t want to let you go, my sunshine. The place was new but the people were known,Where the song…
Marriage of Convenience and Legal Rape
“I think God, in creating man, somewhat overestimated his ability.”― Oscar Wilde I still remember the day when I was put in front of the unknown like I was an exhibit for a show and some art appreciators had come to see me. It was the very day I was thrown into an incessant trial…
Let’s Talk
We have picked up phones on each other,Sat at the cafe, speaking our heart out,But this time, shona, let’s talk. Let’s talk selfless,Just like the first time, we swiped right on each other. Let’s talk timeless,Just like we did from dusk to dawn. Let’s talk fearless,Just like we did in front of all odds. Let’s…
Autobiography of an Indian Gay Man from a Middle Class Family
GAY. The word has two meanings light-hearted and carefree; and homosexual. When one is brought up in the Indian society, one doesn’t learn either of these two meanings; albeit what one learns as the meaning of the word is Chakka. Any effeminate man or any man acting in a feminine way, as per Indian societal…
Custodians of the So-called-Society
A man, sitting in an air-conditioned conference room, conceptualizing and presenting a new idea: “Love your Parents.” What a brilliant thought. Parallelly, he has been getting calls from a known number, which he has been avoiding for a while now. He excuses himself from the room to come out and yells, “Don’t you get the…
Incomplete
You covered my sky like life with your clouds. They were bright, bubbly and smiling. You made me look good. Everyone looked up to me because of you. You made me look beautiful. Sadly, they have become dark. So, dense that even your sunshine can’t penetrate. They are so heavy with pain and emotions that…
Amidst the Harmony, he gave me Solace
“Life is for the living. Death is for the dead. Let life be like music. And death a note unsaid.” ― Langston Hughes, The Collected Poems Amidst my loneliness, music gives me solace. And such was the loneliness of the day, that it drew me to that concert. The melody of those unimpeachable voices pervaded…
Scared
I’m scared of my own silence,of the unanswered questions that revolve around. I’m scared of unsolvable puzzles,It’s raising levels without a completion. I’m scared of my own demon,who is killing its better half every minute. I’m scared of affection,It’s pulling me down from all directions. I’m scared of darkness,As it’s trying to make me a…
For You…
I look for you,In this dark and silent night,I look for you. You always said,close your eyes and feel me there,I’m always there, just next to you. Here, I’m cold. I’m afraid,But you are not here and,I look for you. I’m crying,because my heart is heavy,And I need you. Not to support or console me,But…
ANKUR MONDAL 