Growing up was like trying to solve a puzzle with missing pieces. I felt surrounded by friends who seemed to have it all figured out, and I effortlessly blended in with the crowd of “hetero boys.” It was confusing and challenging, always trying to fit into a mould that didn’t quite fit me. And then he entered my life, and everything changed.

Last night, while watching the finale of the series Sex Education, the concluding dialogue gripped my heart, and I couldn’t stop myself from thinking about him. “Meeting you cracked my heart open, and now it’s forever changed. And because of that, I will carry a part of you with me wherever I go. I think what I’m trying to say is thanks for everything, dickhead.“; the letter from Maeve to Otis made me choke in my thoughts, but later, I was grateful.

Meeting M was like opening a door to a whole new world. His confidence and authenticity brought a wave of fresh air into my life. He showed me that it’s okay to be different, to embrace my true self, and not conform to societal expectations. He cracked my concealed heart open, and now it’s forever changed. He did bring a sense of belonging that I had longed for as if the missing piece of my puzzle had finally found its rightful place.

Now, when I think about it, dating women had always felt like wearing a disguise, a role I played to fit in. It was comfortable in some ways, but it was also draining. But with him, I found the freedom to embrace my authentic self. He gave me confidence and taught me that it’s perfectly fine to break free from the norm and be unapologetically me.

Because of him, my world was illuminated. He became my guiding light on this journey of self-discovery. His unwavering support helped me navigate through confusion and self-doubt. He always reminded me that it was absolutely okay to embrace my true identity.

As I reflect on our journey together, I am grateful for the depth of the experiences we shared. The laughter that filled the air, the tears we shed in moments of vulnerability, and the shared dreams that sparked inspiration within us. Each memory is a cherished treasure, a reminder of the profound impact he had on my life. He didn’t just show me how to love myself; he also taught me that love transcends boundaries, labels, and rules. Love is simply love, and it’s something truly worth celebrating.

Now, as I stand here, where my heart belongs to the love of my life, I realise I do carry a piece of him in my heart. It’s a reminder of the love, acceptance, and betrayal he has showered upon me and a reminder that I am deserving of love just as I am. He was the guiding light and my darkest moment, the strength and the greatest misery, and the source of inspiration as I strived to become the best version of myself.

He has left an imprint that time cannot erase. So, from the depths of my heart, I want to express my gratitude to him. Thank you for illuminating my life, which not only brought me closer to the love of my life but also helped me discover the love within myself. With G, our journey has been incredible, and I am excited to see where it takes us next. Together, we will continue to smash barriers and spread the message that love is love – a celebration of authenticity and acceptance.