Raising a toast after the wrap is a great feeling,
but does that give me happiness?
All that glitters is not gold,
would clearly define my profession’s flashiness.
While sitting with a bunch of people,
who are succeeding or have done a lot in life;
the feeling inside is deflating,
as I could not thrive.
At a stage of life,
where I should have achieved a lot;
there are a few things to celebrate,
a few things to rejoice about.
Count your blessings,
is easier said than done;
even if I have a few,
bliss gives me none.
In the growing years,
everyone boasted of my talent;
however, it’s not simple to triumph,
as life is imbalanced.
Praise should come with an opportunity,
or enough capital to fund;
because homemaking is an enormous task,
and society is Double-tongued.
This is not the last chapter of my life,
not the last breath I inhaled;
But when I see myself standing at the centre stage,
It’s a boy who tried but failed.
ANKUR MONDAL 
Success and failure are subjective matters. Some keywords in your outpour are, profession’ s flashiness, fund, triumph are worth notable. What is success? is a topic of boardrooms to satsangs.
If a fish will gauge itself by the abilities of a bird then it would consider itself a dumb and stupid all his life – Einstein. To gauge length, we have metric system. to gauge energy we have Joules. Different aspects are gauged by different standards. Your key to success is in others achievement MAY BE bcoz you looking at yourself from their Goggles!! ?? A BiG YESSSS to society. Of course we live in it but last few years i have understood that it’s healthy to be deaf and mute on some matters especially matters concerning your success. This is the place where OUR individuality( Ego n Pride) gets hurt. AIMS (small or big)can be achieved (by strategies), but SUCCESS – NEVER !!!
The word success in itself- is a parameter set by others. Contentment, Satisfaction…Yes that lies in a person’s own hand.
Flashi – Home/Car/Post— that’s SUCCESS. not necessarily you will still not feel Empty inside.
For Me – Success means, doing what i want to do- so i am not successful. Simple. But that’s not making a hole in my heart. But i am not a Failure either bcoz i don’t give a fcuking DAMN what an onlooker will think about me, my position or my status.
It’s a TOUGH LIFE, for an artistic(free) soul, because world is commerce. And artistic pursuits has always been a luxury in this world. thrive but LIVE without expecting from your own self. The profession i do- my shoulders always remain down 👎 but get me my favourite topic and energy sprouts from every corner of my existence. for me that success. Home/Luxury/Position — they all will come- but with time. For someone – too early, For others – too late. Don’t attach your success with those movables and immovables. Otherwise you WILL BE swayed by them as like now.